I want to scribble something on paper as they say writing is helpful to release your mind and relax yourself but I never consistently been able to do it. Thus, I didn’t have a notebook to write. Besides it is raining outside and this makes me unmotivated to go out and search one. Finally it is already dark in a allegedly dangerous -at least need to be careful- neighborhood of San Jose.
I am feeling like my head is full of with so much necessary / unnessary inputs. Having this sentiment when I travel and use social media a lot. Right now I am doing both. I arrived to Costa Rica a few days ago. Because it is rainy season and I am feeling restless and due to some other personal stuff -I bought an apartment here in Costa Rica (in the capital, San Jose) and I am busy with the administrative things. Now because of reveiling this and due to some other concerns I am worrying about keeping my name visible on the blog. Thinking this is giving so much importance to yourself? I prefer keeping what I have been doing private but really who cares if I buy an apartment ? What if someone at work come accross this blog ? Should I delete my name ? But If I do that to be honest I don’t like being anonymous. It is not motivating for me doing something. I want to be visible.. seen.. appreciated with what I do.. even it is a small thing.. whatever! I will come back this point later but it is still relaxing spilling this out- I am not really into making a plan to keep myself entertained. Besides, there is too much work at office in Tahiti I have to focus on. Last month I travelled to Turkey for 3 weeks. It gave me so much headache and tyring and financial stroke. Long trips -2 to 3 days- in each direction and 13 hours time difference was challenging where you arrive. Since my return to Tahiti I couldn’t have had chance to recover completely. And now, only couple weeks after I had to leave for this trip.
All the concerns I mentioned above are details. Main issue is my mind. I feel like it is full. It is like being exposed by external resourcess constantly as I mentioned above like social media mainly instagram, but it doesnt have enough chance to process what it stocks and transform them to a meaningful outcome. This way of treatment causes fatigue in the mind and consecutively (I wrote this without checking dictionary) giving me stress as I am aware something is not fully accurate and need to take an action. Either I stop using social media which is something I am not willing about as someone having life style like me like having 15000km between home and where he lives, travelling frequently in some regular the social media is an easy and effective way to keep yourself and your people like family & friends up to date with each other, besides keeping the connection with crushes 🙂
Besides, when you use social media in a smart way it helps you to develop. If my awareness is that much about the importance of doing exercise, nutrition, personal development, investment etc it is really thanks to instagram. Ok I exagerate sometimes the time I spend but it is still I want to keep it.
That’s why this afternoon I felt so much the need of writing something then publishing it. I don’t like keeping things for myself. It is really not important noone reads them but they have to be published. It is a challenge for me as well to progress your outcome, hence yourself. Indeed when starting writing I was more full and emotional, having more to say. In the middle I went to salsa class then on the way back I walked whole way like 5km. When arrived back I was feeling tired and more relieved already.
It seems it is done for the moment. I want to keep this blog up but not sure when to be motivated to write again.
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