I should start with this since I like explaining myself.. the reason of my behaviors. I like showing how smart, reasonable, logical person I am while acting or taking a decision -even though it is not even close-. This should be known: If I do something there is a logical reason behind.
What does it mean?
Maybe a defense mechanism committed by my subconscious, even though I believe no need to be approved by anyone else, there is still that feeling somewhere hidden willing to show the reasonable intention of my actions. Or maybe just needing a kickoff to initiate a new journey since I lack ability to jump in the middle of something like not minding before or after according to which I must raise stairs from first step one by one.
Whatever the reason is..
I am here, finally starting this because of the feeling that my brain or my soul or whole myself -whatever is called- is like a bucket filled with water from bottom to top, and now everything I experience new in my life either doesn’t surprise me anymore or just overwrites what I had in the past because there is not enough space in my bucket. But I don’t want to lose past experiences and how they made me feel, or I don’t want to miss the joy of new experiences. I want to keep them. At least for myself. Hence, I believe the only way getting rid of that feeling of “I am full” is to share some of I have to spare some space in the bucket or maybe to enlarge it to accept moew, not sure which metaphor to use, then continue receiving new ones with joy.
Saying that I am not talking about the syrup of wisdom, or meaningful quotes like Instagram reels to give a life lesson. Instead, some interesting, funny, maybe useful daily memories. I have been travelling and living in the different regions of the world for couple of years. Last year I spent in Tahiti (while writing this post in the plane on the way back to Tahiti after renewing my French Polynesia visa. Yes! Turkish needs a visa to travel to French Polynesia. Even though I am sponsored by a local company in Tahiti I need to renew my work permit and visa also every 6 months!! How many stories can be written only by this topic for example). Caught the pandemic in Costa Rica for 2 years, and 3 years in Colombia before that. There is difference between travelling as a tourist or living as an expat. Experiences and observations deviate with the time. On top of that the people met, travels, foods, languages, affairs, family & friends in distance, loneliness. An opportunity appears to live the life from different window.
Long to short let me explain how to go from one airport to another one in Panama city for the ones who might ask the answer of question in the next post.
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